The old man and his curse

"I suggest you not to date a man, kid. You're not that ugly. Don't let your fear control you that you'll never have a good man someday. Just focus on your career. By now", said the old man.

Guys, i tell you, this posting isn't a story or fairy tale i make. Just like you see in every story book. But it did happen to me. It was about 5 or 6 years ago, when i was in Junior High. I've been on the way home from my english course place. Let me see, i think it was Thursday. Uh-hmm, thursday night exactly. Can you imagine a 15-year-old-girl just got an awkward yet wisdom word from a stranger? He didn't know me, neither did i. But i was just like hypnotized. After he said those word, i take out my drawing book. Well, to be honest, i didn't bring any book. I didn't forget to take out my pen. Then i gave to him. He wrote his name and his number phone. But you know, until now i don't even try to reach him. Of course! Why on earth i would call a stranger-old-man to consult about my personal life?? It's weird, haha.














Next when i got home, automatically i told it out to my Mom. And her response was, "ya-ya-ya". Hhh, i guess maybe i was just overthink about this. Or my Mom just too underestimated, instead. I don't know. All i ever wish is it wasn't a curse. But if it was, i think i just wait for the man to break the keys. Hhahaha! okay okay, cut it out. I have to stop this imaginary thought.

Oh yeah, i nearly forget. Maybe you confuse why i put that picture in this posting. I don't know, it's just cute. If you have watched "Up", you will see how sweet they are :)

Perempuan Dodol

Cuma mau posting iseng aja ko ini. Hmm, kalo diliat dari judulnya 'Perempuan Dodol', ini aku bukan ceritain tentang perempuan yang suka jualan dodol loh yah. Apalagi cerita tentang orang yang badannya kenyel-kenyel kaya dodol, eww. Tapi aku pengen cerita seupil kedodollan kakak aku, hehe.

Jadi tu minggu lalu ayah nawarin beli tas gitu, tapi aku engga ikut perginya. Cuma Bunda, ayah, De Tya, sama Mba Lia. Tiba2 mba Lia nge-chat aku yang lagi OL, bilangnya mau ngirim foto tas itu. Tapi jadinya.... Fail! haha :))

Gini obrolannya..


Merhatiin ga? antara meebo sama kebo itu jauh kan?? -__-

Tell me everything. Write it all down.
That way, we'll be with each other all the time
even if we're not each other at all

-Savannah (Dear John)

Echoing You

Rindu, rindu, rindu..
Kuulangi kata-kata itu
Sampai aku mati rasa
Sampai tidak ada artinya lagi

Família

Speaking of family, everybody must be someone's something, right? At, least bestfriend. If you havent found that one yet, it's just the matter of time.

Btw, i would introduce you to my first bestfriend, my father. Maybe, he's simply not the most patience father in this world. But you will rarely find him in anger. Dats nice, huh? I want say something to him that probably just in my imagination. I'd say, "Dad, would you mind to play a role? You will be the king and i'm gonna be the princess" hahahahah, sounds weird. I bet, he will accept that. I wish :p I figure out how a living without Dad would be. I'm not ready for it. Really. He's now 53 years old. A half century you know. Yup, he's in the golden age. He teachs me so much. He's such a hardworker. I tell ya, he used to be a receptionist when he was in college. That was in Jogja. But now, he works at one of Government's Company. It's not that easy to reach that level. Maybe that's just so-so for you, guys. But it reminds me, "From zero to hero". That's for my Dad.

Now, let's move to a woman whom i really owe to. Because she's struggled a lot for this family. She's a fussiest mom i have ever known. Hey mom, dont ground me for the things like this! hahaha. But you know, i love her. Dats such a cliche. But, who doesnt love their Mom? I really remember when my mom starts to grumble to dad, if he smokes inside our home. I will automatically giggle. hehe

Do you know who is the first one tortured me when i was kid? Bam! Dats Lia, my older sister. I usually call her, mbak Lia. Uh-hmm, by the way, torturing in a different way you know. Once, i put my hands in order to patch the skin of orange she ate. She's just spitted that to my hand. Oh no-no. It's not the outer skin. Dats skin inside. Can you imagine? Eww. She sucks it and give that to me. I know, i know it's disgusting. Anyway, i wont spill it all, haha. I just tell y'all what i remember the most. However, she's the best sister i have ever met :)

The last but not the least, i have the wittiest sister ever. She's Dek Tia. I can describe her as an unpredictable girl. Yeah, sometimes she's good to me and sometimes not. hahaha *smooch*

Apocalypse

Standing on the middle of the street
Holding a gun
Get it straight to your face
I have no idea what's on your mind
If only i can pull the trigger
Because nothing could be worse than waiting until apocalyse passes us by

Desicion to be made

Sekilas balik ke masa kita lulus SMA, pasti dulu kita udah pada nyiapin universitas dan jurusan apa yang bakal kita pilih kan. Tapi mungkin ada juga yang milih universitasnya, last minute desicion gitu deh, akakak. Nah, pilihan itu bisa jadi pure 100% kemauan kamu atau kemauan orang tua, atau mungkin juga dua-duanya.

Nah, aku punya temen, dimana dia itu milih jurusan yang karena kemauan orang tuanya. Aku pernah nih ngobrolin tentang ini sama dia. Selesai dari salah satu praktikum dari 3 yang diambil semester ini, aku ngobrol sama dia, sembari nunggu fotokopian data praktikum di Savin. Kira-kira gini nih percakapannya,

Aku: Hey, lu ini dari angkatan dari 2009 atau 2010, yan?

Dia: Uhmm, gw tuh lulus th 2008, tapi gw sekarang angkatan 2009..

Aku: Ohh gituuu. Loh jeda 1 tahun lu emang ngapain?

Dia: Iya gw tuh tadinya anak akuntansi STAN..

Aku: Wah, hebat dong. Asal lu tau, ada anak elektro '08 yang keluar, bela-belain pindah ke STAN. Sayang banget yah, kenapa lu pindah?

Dia: Hahahaha, iya sih. Tapi gw jujur ga kuat disana. Karena kuliah di STAN itu kemauan ortu gw

Aku: ummmh gitu, pantesaaan. Oke deh, sukses aja yah buat lu, yan!

Nangkep gak dari percakapan di atas? Yak bener banget, yang namanya niat itu harus dari diri sendiri. Ngaruh banget loh. Jadi, yakin aja sama pilihannya. Insya Allah yang terbaik. Amin!

Serius tapi santai

Pernah ga terpikir kalo kamu kehidupan kamu setelah lulus kuliah nanti bakal gimana. Pernah doong? Hehe. Nah terus abis ntar dapet kerjaan atau bikin kerjaan buat orang. Terus abis itu nikah, abis itu punya anak, abis itu balik lagi ke sang pencipta :) Yaaa emang gitu kan cycle hidup. Bahaha, random yaaa topik obrolannya. Bodo :p

Aku tuh tipe orang yang 80% keputusan aku diambil dari pemikiran dan pertimbangan. Kan ada tuh orang yang tipikal cepet ngambil keputusan. Yaaa orangnya spontan gitulah. Tapi, jangan underestimate dulu, sebenernya banyak loh keuntungan jadi orang yg spontan.

Gini nih, aku ngambil analoginya di jerawat. Kali aja nih di antara kamu, dan biasa cewe, kalo ada jerawat, misal, satuuuu aja, itu bolak-balik ngaca. Jerawatnya nambah ga yaa? Duh keliatan banget ga ya jerawatnya? Ya gitu deh, khawatirrr banget pokoknya. Padahal sadar ga sadar, tuh jerawat malah makin nambah loh kalo semakin dipikirin. Ini true story, aku pernah ngalamin kaya gitu. Satu persatu jerawat makin nambah dari hari ke hari.Yang ngebuktiin ini ga cuma aku aja, april juga. April itu temen sekosan aku, sekaligus nyokap kedua, LOL. Oke balik lagi ke topik. Mungkin ya, mungkiiin, si jerawat tu ke-GR-an, dia tau kalo dia muncul, kita bakal merhatiin dia. Dasar jerawat yang besar kepala! Hrr, kalimat yang terakhir agak aneh yaa. Abaikan.

Lah terus relasinya jerawat sama kehidupan itu apa? ya jangan terlalu dipikiriin . Kalo quote gahulnya itu, "Let it flow..". Jangan terlalu dianggap serius masalah kamu. Atau lebih hebat lagi, cari aja sisi humor dia. Ketawain semua pikiran-pikiran aneh kamu. Asal ada syaratnya nih, jangan ketawa di sembarang tempat, oke? Bahaya, hihi

Serendipity

I'm not gonna write you to..
To stay in front of me
To stay just awhile in my online list
To be here when i need you the most
To let you know i couldn't help without you
To say you're summer after my winter
To catch me when i fall
To win my heart before the other comes
To tell God we're meant to be

Well, it's okay if you're not going this way
But what kind of heart doesn't look back
You don't mind, huh?
Simply, just be the sun i would kill to see the moon

Spill the beans

The facts are..

• i cant close my eyes more than 30 sec in bathroom. Below is the illustration :))

• i spend 6 hours or more in front of the computer

• i barely can miss the Oprah's Show on Sunday

• i'm a big fan of eggplants, potatoes, and cheese :*
  

• i've got problem in gaining weight. Susah beneeer x.x

• i'm allergic to morning air

• i don't really like a fussy person

• i'm a bull-headed

• i brush my teeth outside the bathroom. eheheh, bad habit :p

• i looooove green ♥♥
  

let's break the sun

You know you wanna meet the moon
But you have to say hello to the sun first
Just like the night comes after the day
If only you can break the rule
Changing the cycle to see the moon earlier
You really like the moon just the way you like him
You write that you love the moon, over and over again
Until you meet the moon
Then you will realize, both moon and sun are more than just a matter for you

on the cloudy day, 01:30 PM

Bumi yang Angkuh

Kadang aku merasa, kamulah orang yang paling bersalah
Tak pernah sekali saja lupakanlah egomu
Lupakan bahwa kamu bumi dan aku pluto
Bukankah semakin diperhatikan, akan semakin terasa jarak itu
Lihat, bimasakti saja tanpa sadar beberapa kali membawa kita dalam satu garis sejajar pada orbital
Dari dekade satu ke dekade lain, tabrakan meteor selalu mengancam kamu dan aku
Apa kamu akan tetap berpijak di garis edar-mu?
Dan menunggu sampai matahari enggan berpendar kembali??

Di margonda. Tempat Sate Padang Ajo. Nemenin ayah makan. 20:43 PM

Summer comes faster

woaah, ini blog isinya norak2 semuaaaaa. Need reparation badly! hahahaaha. Bodo ah
yayaya, udah dua minggu gw ngekos *hyaaa, tukan norak bgt ngekos bilang2* Sebenernya byk yg nanya, "knp sih lu ngekos nis?", "emang rumah lu jauh ya?". Well, gampang sih jawabnya. Rumah gw ga jauh tuh, haha. Yaaa gw ngekos, karena, pertama gw pengen bisa mandiri. Kedua, biar rumah gw deket juga, duitnya yg keluar mah sama aja ky gw sekolah di Kramat Jati yg jauh itu. Ketiga, krn gw pengen, hehehe. Terakhir dan yang paling penting, gw lagi butuh motivasi dan lagi ga bisa self-motivation. Yang namanya motivasi itu priceless emang, gan. Let me explain. Gw ini tipe orang yg gampang dimotivasi. Serius, gampang. Di rumah, bunda sama ayah sering sih, bilang, "ayo nis belajar..", abis gitu doi tidur. Hyaaa, gw jd ikut2an tidur. Hahahaha :p Kaka gw kan lagi di Jatinangor. Sisa ade gw, yaaaah dy apalagi, sama aja, huhuhu.
Akhirnya gw ngekos kaaan dan gw milih lingkungan anak2 rajin, huahaha. Iya, di Pokus :)

"Really great people can make you feel that you, too, can become great" - Mark Twain

Headline News :D :D

summer ain't come

After all my ex did to me, but the most is about aching. I miss him *sorry for being brutally honest* hahaha. btw, below here, it's not about him ;)

She really doesn't care if he wanna hurt her,

like the other did

If only he knows that she was stumbling and thinking,

how to treat him without hurt him

Then finally she knew,

that there's a girl, outhere

waiting for him,

so long before she was here

If she were her,

she'll hurt so much seeing somebody's new

At the end,

he hurted both of them

. . .

satu kata buat hari ini,

KESEL!

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Pertanyaan di formspring gw,

Dari yang ga jelas, *yg gw gatau syp yg ngirim*

hhooyy

ngg, hoy jugaaa :O

Yang intim..

sekarang lagi deket ama cowo mana??

ga deket sama anak mana-mana, heuheu
baru temen ajaaa :)

Sampe yang aib gini, hahahaha

masih bau ketek ngga lo? Soalnya gw masih niiihh.. gara2 deket lo..hhaa

maaf, gw udah pake rex**a sih itumah lu nya aja yg lg cuti mandi, hahaha
dessy nih pasti! kangennnn x(

The Choosen One

Barusan sepupu gw kesambet gitu, trus jadi romantisss, hahaha
dan dy ngasi kata-kata ke gw, dan menurut gw, bagus. hmm

Bertemu adalah kesempatan, mencintai adalah pilihan...

Ketika kita bertemu orang yang tepat untuk dicintai, Ketika kita berada di tempat pada saat yang tepat, Itulah kesempatan..
Ketika kita bertemu dengan seseorang yang membuatmu tertarik, Itu bukan pilihan, itu kesempatan.. .
Bertemu dalam suatu peristiwa bukanlah pilihan, Itupun adalah kesempatan..

Bila kita memutuskan untuk mencintai orang tersebut, Bahkan dengan segala kekurangannya, Itu bukan kesempatan, itu adalah pilihan...
Ketika kita memilih bersama dengan seseorang walaupun apapun yang terjadi, Bahkan ketika kita menyadari bahwa masih banyak orang lain yang lebih menarik, lebih pandai, lebih kaya, daripada pasanganmu, Dan tetap memilih untuk mencintainya, Itulah pilihan...

. . .

don't you know?


i'm sick of those word

" i really want to.. but i cant "

you're better do what you want and can do


do something,


because word doesn't work in me

Where i end and you begin

Ide noraknya lagi muncul nih, jadi gak kenapa2 laah, nyampah lagi, hahaha


Switchfoot sempet cerita,

Sometimes ignorance rings true, but hope is not in; not in me, its in you

Owl city ikut-ikutan ngomong,

It takes two to whisper quietly

Waktu itu Tompi pernah ngomong,

Tak pernah aku niati untuk melukaimu

Kalo versi boys 2 men,

Speak to me, let me know how you feel

katanya Ne-yo,

What the hell do we do now?

Well, The Fray bilang,

In the end everyone ends up alone

Tu me manques ?

Yesterday my cellphone was left at home. Well, one day long, i worried about people contacted me. In additional, at that time, i went home late. Just bcos accompanying Hana to walk around campus. She said she's so damn bored. The we chatted along street, just a girl's talk.

At 07.30 pm, my dad picked me up at FT. We had dinner at our housing nearby. Finally, at 09.30 pm i came home. The one that i looked for is my cell.*bukannya nyari orang rumah, paraah, hahaha* I looked my cell. I saw that there are 3 message and 1 misscall. One message from Rika, one from Ocha, one message and one misscall from him. Hmm, okay. I thought "he" would look for me, but this time my guess slipped. After i cleaned my clothes and everything, i tried to reply their sms. Just a few minute, he called me again. This time, i rejected his call. I know that night's tariff isn't cheap, and i thought he just wanted me to reply his message. Then message was sent. It took a long time, until he replied back. But suddenly, my ex texted me, "Cek.. cek..". Why did he text me like that? And then, i asked him. Well.. he's not looking for me actually, but he tested his mobile network bcos there's something wrong in it. At 11.30 pm, he replied my message. He told me, that he's just finished his football's exercise. At 01.00 am, i said to him that i wanted to sleep. Then we ended our little talking.

I dont know what i'm feeling right now. Umm, i dont know how to describe his position this time. Maybe this quote can tell you about him..

"Stay" is a charming word in a friend's vocabulary
-Louisa May Alcott-

All i know is finally there's a human cares for my presence, when i dont have too much time to be around. Although, it doesnt mean i dont have any friend to lay my shoulder on.

Head Over Heels

It's Wednesday, 14.24 pm, the only day i don't have class, What i'm doing is sitting in front of the computer, blog-walking. Don't you have to do ur homework, huh? Yes, i will. Just hold on *monolog autis, haha* Last night, someone called me. The one whose photos and videos i will erase permanently, i have made his own folder among my campus files in my Toshi by the way. Yes, we have separarated since 6 days ago. Well, that idea didn't come from my self. It came from my elder sister, she said, "Erase them'all sis, you'll thank to me someday". I need time to do that. One hour, i just wasn't ready yet. Two hours later, i was still. Huh! "Click..", there was one message. And it came from him. As usual, we had so much trashy-talking. At 00.35 am, he called me. Accidentally at the same time, my Zune was playing Look After You-The Fray.

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh,
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I'll always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my Baby
I'll look after you
And I'll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you
After You
Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhh

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

You are so beautiful to me (repeat)

The conversation just flew along the night. Then he started to say, that he *censored* me. How dare you said that! Anyone, can you help me to stop him saying that? It hurted me, literally. :(
*I think all the thing i've typed is just too much. i wish!

Friksi

LOL *awalan yang aneh, buat mulai lagi ngisi blog ini*

Bener-bener di luar dugaan. awal yang hebat, untuk akhiran yang begitu dangkal.
Sedangkal itu, sampai aku sendiri gak tau.. bisa secepat ini.
Marah? enggak. Sedih? nggak. Bingung? jelasss bingung
Harus yaaa ada pertemuan, kalo toh akhirnya dipisahin? hah?

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